Friday, May 17, 2013

Pity Party For One

I had one of those emotionally exhausting weeks.
Work, personal life, self-confidence.. yeah, all of that was difficult.
So I started having a pity party for myself.
A pity party for one.
Get it over it Kathleen.
My recipe last night to get over the "BS" of my crazy week and to move on from the things that brought me down were.. a long walk with J and the pups, a treadmill walk while watching Real Housewives of Orange County, long prayer before bedtime and a great night of sleep.
It's Friday and this girl is feeling refreshed!
I knew I had to snap out of this funk I have been in because tomorrow I have my Dirty Girl 5k Mud Run and I have been pretty nervous for it. My last 5k I attempted to run several weeks ago was a major fail. Like such a big fail there is no way to find the good in the race (if you can even call it that).. I had mentally prepared for the run and thought I would be able to hold my own with a few stops along the way... I was excited, motivated and ready, but when the race officially started I had a panic attack. Minutes in I stopped, started crying, my breathing was off and I could barely walk the race. This is not normal people!!
The only bright side was that I finished the "race".. with a time that was way worse then my normal walking pace. Simply pathetic that day was for me.
I need to get myself in the zone for tomorrow and to convince myself that I CAN succeed. I need to BELIEVE in myself and have fun with this 5k. And when I do complete the run I WILL celebrate with a celebratory drink in the beer garden - morning drinking at its finest!


  1. I have been running and racing for over 10 years now, and I STILL have anxiety before each race...nothing major, but a little shortness of breath and a some questioning as to whether I will be able to do it or not.

    Everytime I remind myself that if necessary, it is okay to stop and walk. No one cares about my time or place. Not one single person. There are others out there who are having the same thoughts as myself. I then remind myself to put one foot in front of the other and to keep in mind that I am making my way to the finish line, be it fast or slow.

  2. I have anxiety as well and that is why I have never signed up for a race. The fact that you even tried makes me admire you :) You can do it!

  3. YOu can do it! :) 5k's are fun, I struggled with my first 5k, I did the Color Run last year and i couldn't even run the whole thing! It can only get better, right? :)

  4. Can't wait to hear how you did! Do t put so much pressure on yourself. Running should be fun. I told my husband the minute it's not fun for me I'm hanging up my sneakers. Everyone has a bad race. My first race? The day after St. Party's day. It was horrible. But I learned from it. Believe in yourself Kathleen!!